I’m not really sure who reads these posts but I would like to establish a point, I hear Voices. Now this is where I will loose some of y’all but hang with me for a minute and you will see my point.

How many of you have wanted something so bad and you want to do something to make what you want a reality and yet you think, “Its not going to do you any good to try, you dont have a chance”? Then how many of you mope around for a while and realize this is important to you and you think to yourself “why am I thinking like this, thats a defeatist viewpoint” then you go and work to achieve whatever it is you wanted?

If you said yes to both of these then congrats you hear Voices too. Its a battle that I fight very strongly every day and almost every minute. My desire to do more goes against my feelings of pointlessness and sometimes, apathy and tiredness.

In the movie, Kingdom of Heaven, there is a part where the blacksmith reads to someone who is with him what is carved into the wooden beam above the smithy. The carving said:
“What Man, is a Man, who doesnt make the world a better place”. This statement has resonated with me and sirred up thoughts.

Then I read a quote which I am not sure where it came from but it was used by a fellow Meetup Member for the Ron Paul campaign it said:
“I am only one, but I am one. I cannot do everything, but I can do something. And because I cannot do everything, I will not refuse to do the something that I can do. What I can do, I should do. And what I should do, by the grace of God, I will do.”

Now to the point of this post. Last time I posted some responses to the developing events of the Ron Paul campaign and I was in a state where the voice I was listening to was the voice that says: “forget all about it, you cant make any difference because they will just steal the votes from your hard earned work”. I was consumed by the defeatist mentality and a loss of hope. But something changed from the beginning of the day when I posted that to the evening when I left work.

What changed was a rekindled desire to be free. Not just physically, but mentally also. Who am I putting my hope in? Who am I being dependent on? Those questions where passing through me at mock 10. My desires to have a farm called “Myerstown Family Farm” was envisioned to bring us to a point where we were not dependent on someone else raising our food and in so doing we would not be dependent on a Job to work at to make money to pay for food and other things. Though we have yet to attain that goal, we know that we can and will if we stay persistent. But even that has a dependency on something, or someone.

The problem with my previous post, although it has some valid arguments, its driven by fear. That fear is driven by miss placed hope.

Everyone is dependent on someone whether it is yourself, someone else, or God. The problem is when you are dependent on yourself or someone else, you place you hope in that entity. Its the Voice: “I hope that this person will make you free in this nation because you cant figure out how to be free any other way”. Then when there are let downs, because we’re “human”, your hopes are dashed and you have to pick yourself back up again. If you put your hope in yourself, in other words, your Voice says: “I dont care what happens I am going to fortify my defenses and make do and survive on my own” then you open up yourself the the dependency on yourself and others. And we all know how “human” we are and that no one is perfect. Therefore you set yourself up for failure right from the start.

My hope has been found to be miss placed over the past few weeks. It is not a president who can free me. Sure, he can free my physical body and make taxes less burdensome and such, but if I still have my mind in the prison that it is in right now, I will never be free.

I have since chosen to place my dependency on God my savior, through Jesus Christ, as I have in times past but forgotten recently. Because God is always the same, never changing, he is predictable, and can actually make things happen with a word, I choose to be dependent on Him to see me through. This is a Voice that says: “Trust the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths”. This gives me freedom in my heart and mind, therefore no matter what my external environment, I am free anyway.

Even if Ron Paul looses, we know who wins in the end. Continue to be persistent, continue to work hard for Ron Paul because its a good cause and a noble one, but remember who your placing your hope in and remember that with God all things are possible.